Audra Burwell

Injecting Cancer Medicine into the Mother of a Boy I Once Loved

i flick the syringe                           glass shivering
bubbles popping                           quiet fireworks
beneath flesh                                  her body trembles
soft with old scars                        & calcified survival
i stretch fingers                              taut against buttocks
bruised & split                              i knead deep
into calloused shell                      needle tunnels
subdermal rupture                       blood beads a dark pearl
down her thigh                              she thanks me
like it was kindness                      to shoulder her son’s burden
she asks me to pen                        her memoir
story stitched from                       trauma &
cheap perfume                               how i came to love her
as much as i loved him                she wanted to will me
her corset collection                    lace & leather
boned decay                                   the weight
of forced motherhood                now she’s gone
cancer’s cold teeth                       gnawing at flesh
we couldn’t save                           her son with
another woman                            a daughter to love
the throb of his                            mother’s body turned
                                    fever dream